PURPOSE......is it too much for people to comprehend

I am in the middle of a firing squad and in this case, I am actually the one holding one of the guns. it is weird because for months I have been anxiously awaiting this moment and anxiously awaiting to hold the trigger. This time I kinda have permission to - but I CAN'T SEEM TO PULL it off..

Why? For some weird reason I can't seem to answer that question. I am human (I think - although some might say I am the devil that can't afford the Prada) - but after reading my fiancee's blog about the rat race - it has triggered me to actually gain some confidence in pulling the trigger of this gun. Knowing that people sometime unconsciously manipulate things by using other people's empathy or sypathy is now very pathetic to me - so why care, right - For me it boils down to PURPOSE...

What DO I want my PURPOSE to be? Do I want to be the scary creature in other people's lives? Do I want to be the sweet innocent person that just smiles and let things slide or Do I become the realist that let's people forget their dreams ... their dreams of becoming the best manipulators of the world.

I only want my purpose to be "LOVE". I know it's a huge word but Love (to me) only means that I honestly think of the other perso unconditionally without having to compromise my own beliefs. Now I know this is confusing because most think that you can't LOVE both self and other at any given time. Now think about this though - If you LOVE and someone loves you back (the same way you love) wouldn't it be unnecessary to Love yourself (meaning selfishly; you know the type that says " Me first") if someone is already LOVING you unconditionally?

My point is - being in a firing squad is just part of the daily rambles I have to participate in so that I can get through the day to end with the person that holds my purpose. Look it is not Juan that gives me purpose but he definitely makes it seamless for me to actualize mi real purpose. Bebebooobooot - Thanks for the unconditional love and understanding - you let me remember what matters most and what are just distractions in the midst of my path. You are my third eye and the beneficiary of my heart. WubWooo

Time to Do my own Shedding

Ok - My Birthday is fast approaching and since my last one I have gained an astronomical 25 lbs - well maybe less but it feels like I've gained FIFTY!. A co-worker tells me about a secret method on how to do this and I will try to do that starting ASAP. So I will list the 3 things I will start tomorrow and see how this progresses in 2 WEEKS.

1. NO MORE RICE
2. DRINK WARM WATER AND A TABLESPOON OF HONEY FIRST THING IN THE MORNING AND MORE WATER ALL DAY LONG
   
3. EAT LIGHT DINNERS

that's how far this will go for now. Of course I want to say go to the gym but hey, that would seem like a giant leap. Let me try to stabilize my Diet first. I've gained and lost weight so many times in my life and before I can go on any extreme adventures - I need to be FIT! That's right! FIT - I know it's about the inside that counts - but this is not about superficiality - this is about - well , yeah My superficial self fitting into my not so superficial self. I want my heart to work soundly and my lungs to pump oxygen normally (SHIT! I guess kicking the smoking should be in that list, as well - that's a whole new project - i'll have to keep in the sidebar). So For NOW - Warm Water and Honey it is - will let you know how this quest goes. By the way - I decided to call the water/honey/one kalamansi concoction the ABETH Diet - So thank her if it works and kill her if it doesn't - better yet - take a bite at her!

nomADVENTUREr Bucket List DAVAO

I guess I decided to do a systematic way of getting my goals in check. I know an adventure is supposed to be a spontaneous thing but in a place where you can easily get lost in the middle of nowhere and has a gazillion different dialects ( I actually just know a little bit of 2 different ones), It is wise to have some sort of a plan - unless I want this adventure to be the LAST. So here are the things I would love to do in my nomADVENTURE DAVAO Series.

1. Scuba Diving / Snorkeling
2. Adventure Nature Trails
3. Climb Mount Apo and other mountains:
4. Caving (bullet point - list caves to see)
   
5. Party Cruise
6. Kayaking
7. Wind Surfing
8. White Water Rafting
9. Island Hopping
   
10. Rappelling
    
11. Sunset Tour
12. Road Tripping
13. Beach Bumming at as many possible beaches I can get to.

So PLEASE ( to the nth degree) If you could offer some sort of info or suggestion that can be of help for my quest - Kindly give me some hints. Thanks Y'all!

nomad seeks ADVENTURE

I am a self proclaimed NOMAD. I have not really settled in a place to call home, yet I find myself in my place of ORIGIN. I guess I call it origin only because I was conceived here but so far from knowing the actual place (which is really embarrasing). So here I am trying to venture into the "WILD" for knowledge, discovery and OH YES (let's not lie) FUN FILLED ADVENTURE!. I've traveled across the world looking for high impact, high adrenaline - ok exciting stuff to do but I am quite sure there is a different kind of FUN over here.

I think it is only obvious that I look for information in the web to know what to do, where to go, how to go about it and who to contact. Searching for answers, I see the beautiful pictures in various tourism websites, even government agencies but DAMN! my salivating eyes and heart thumping excitement is put to a halt - NOBODY TELLS ME HOW TO GET THERE!

- I can't call anyone, and there are no concrete answers as to how to go there! WHAT SHOULD I DO? Yes, I may look brown( and really proud for being one!) but I am just not going into some unfamiliar place and think I'll just find my merry way. So here it is.

I am determined to find answers, know the details of getting there - Go there , Have an Adventure of a lifetime and DOCUMENT it for everyone else to know - so they wouldn't have to go through what I am going through - at this very FRUSTRATING MOMENT! - AHHHHHHHHHHHH

So to everyone who has the ANSWERS - share or better yet - JOIN me in my Quest for ADVENTURES! Be a nomADVENTURER!